So, I had a really bad morning this morning. Until I figured out why. Bad body image.
I saw my first boyfriend at Wal-Mart yesterday. He didn't see me and I definitely didn't say anything to him -- it felt weird to see the first guy who ever saw me naked, esp. since I now weigh 100 pounds more than I did way back then (13 years ago). Yeah. That was weird. After I drove out of the parking lot, I didn't think another thought about it until this morning.
But I probably should have told hubby, especially considering some girls at work are hitting on him again. He feels guilty every time and tells me about it, which is okay (I'd rather know than not, and it's an indication he's not gonna cheat 'cuz he's letting me know it happened and made him uncomfortable). But then this morning, I got feeling all ... fat.
So, I clocked out of work and swiped kiddo's MP3 player (*note* must get hubby to take off some of those rated R songs!) and went for a walk twice around the neighborhood, then instead of OD'ing on leftover garlic mashed potatoes for lunch, I made a turkey sammy on whole wheat bread with butter lettuce, a thinly sliced gala apple, and mustard ... so good ... whoa.
Now I'm getting back to work and feeling better. The surgery sort of took the sexy out of me -- couldn't wear normal bras for a long time, and they still hurt sometimes, and I was wearing bras that made me FLAT up top (which is soooooooo not normal). And, well, try feeling sexy when you have a migraine or are in so much pain or so tired you cry all the time. Yeah ... But here I am, married to this amazing guy who loved me through it all ... And I fully intend to continue bringing SEXY me back into the bedroom for my husband instead of feeling frumpy and never bothering with my hair and/or makeup.
and this cracked me up. i sure hope i get to keep him! hehehehehehe.
| You Are 49% Scary |
 You're a pretty normal, nice girl... but you definitely have your scary moments. As long as you acknowledge them and apologize, you'll probably keep your guy around. |
this also cracked me up. between this and the above, one might think I'm schizophrenic. and so am I.
| You are White Chocolate |
 You have a strong feminine side with a good bit of innocence thrown in. Whether your girlish ways are an act or not, men like to take care of you. You are an understated beauty, and your power is often underestimated! |
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