From the Pregnancy Files

Breakfast this morning would probably gross me out any other time: Whole wheat pancakes with syrup on a plate ... chili w/ cheese and sour cream in a bowl ... Never the two in my mouth at the same time, but I did eat them both in one sitting. And finally feel full and satisfied. And oddly, NOT nauseated.

Geeze ... This little bean is taking over my body!!! I guess I should have expected that ... They do take it over for a year or two (longer if you nurse full time).

Owell. I'll take the weird foodness if I can have a healthy baby!

1. Do you like blue cheese? Yes.
2. Have you ever smoked heroin? No ... I've never done drugs. Oddly.
3. Do you own a gun? No, although my brothers and dad wish I would buy one ...
4. Your favorite song? Um ... don't have one.
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Depends -- if it's a checkup, not usually. I did get very nervous when I was having all those new doctors dealing with my heart last year though.
6. What do you think of hot dogs? Ew, although I'm sure at some point this baby will want me to eat one.
7. Favorite Christmas song? I rather enjoyed the video of the men's group singing the funniest 12 days.
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Water, OJ.
9. Can you do push ups? Not since my surgery.
11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? My engagement ring.
12. Favorite hobby? Aside from "watching" movies with DH, I like to crochet.
14. Do you have A.D.D.? No.
15. What one trait do you hate about yourself? That I am lazy.
16. What is your middle name? Fatoush.
17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment...I feel like I'm going to puke, I need to work, and I have no idea how all the bills are getting paid.
18. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink. Water, OJ, milk. Hot chocolate and egg nog in the winter (the best kind of egg nog is Southern Comfort -- it's nonalcoholic and delish)
19. Current worry right now? The pregnancy
20. Current hate right now? Nausea
21. Favorite place to be? In DH's arms
22. How will you bring in the New Year? *hoping* DH is really up to visiting family so they'll watch kiddo overnight so we can have some alone time ... "watching" movies ...
23. Where would you like to go? East Coast and see Grampa, or Europe, OR I'd like to visit DH's island of birth.
24. Name three people who will complete this? No idea -- CC might, Kip might, DAWN will probably steal it.
25. Do you own slippers? Yes ... but no idea where they are
26. What shirt are you wearing? A pink 3/4 sleeve top and a microfleece top over it. I'm cold.
27. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? Never have. I'd rather have flannel in the winter.
28. Can you whistle? mhm
29. Favorite color? Green, blue, purple ...
where are 30, 31, and 32?
33. Favorite girl's name? NO ideah, which is bad since I'm PREGNANT.
34. Favorite boy's name? (see above)
35. What's in your pocket right now? No pockets in my jammy pants
36. Last thing that made you laugh? Munchkin being silly.
37. Best bed sheets as a child? ... no idea.
38. Worst injury you've ever had? Various broken bones. But the surgery, while not an injury, was the worst to recover from.
39. Do you love where you live? I love my condo. I don't like snow. Too bad we live in Utah.
40. How many TVs do you have in your house? Two, unless you count the portable DVD player, in which case it is 3.
41. Who is your loudest friend? ... I'm probably the loudest one, actually.
42. How many dogs do you have? None and won't unless I want DH to eat it.
43. Does someone have a crush on you? Just my husband.
44. Favorite book? The scriptures? No ideah.
46. What is your favorite candy? Currently, cinnamon bears.
47. Favorite Sports Team? bah.
48. What song do you want played at your funeral? Whatever is fitting.
49. What were you doing 12 AM last night? Finishing work.
50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? Wondered if DH was going to make it home in the exploder. he was late. (He did)

So, I quit spotting ...

Yeah, I started spotting? sort of on Sunday. Had some light pink discharge. Took it easy Monday, had one more that night, and then it went away. Still told my family about the baby, just told mom I was having this problem and was having back cramps and needed prayers. Felt just fine Tuesday and DH was feeling frisky that night ... so ... yeah. Anyway. Had brown spotting Wednesday morning and more pink discharge. When I mentioned to the midwife that we'd played Saturday night, too, she said no nookie for a while. *sigh* Owell, I haven't had any spotting since Wednesday, so I guess we'll survive without the nookie. We have to if we want the baby to be okay, and we really do want this baby to be okay.

So last night, DH left for work on time. About 20 minutes later, the garage opened up again. Apparently, one of the tires blew out on him just before he got on the freeway. He had to drive on it about a mile to get it to a parking lot, so I was panicked about the rim but very glad he was okay. He got to work about an hour late after having to stop and put air in the explorer's tires. *rolling eyes*

He's been crashed the last couple days anyway. One of his friends has been a very bad word this week and DH doesn't deal well with people backstabbing him. So, the tire thing ... was too much. We'd planned to go to lunch with my folks, but he was too out of it, so I had them come get kiddo and me and we went to lunch. Then my dad changed the tire and we got it fixed (the rim was fine) and ran a whole bunch of errands, including getting groceries and going to the bank (two of them) and the post office. I'm now exhausted and have quite a bit of work left. At least Munchkin got to hang out with me for a while today ... gah ...

It's official: I'm pregnant!


So the day of my last post, 12/03, I passed out for two hours in the afternoon snuggled up with DH. Didn't think much of it until the next morning, when I got up at 6, worked for a bit, went out to help kiddo get ready for school, laid down on the couch, and the next thing I knew it was an hour later and she was late to school. I decided I had to take a test because that's just not normal! lol. We also had some drama with dh's job that same day/week -- which made me go, "I bet I'm pregnant." So I took a test as soon as I dropped her off.

There was a very faint line. I was only 12DPO, so I wasn't expecting it to be flaming positive, but still didn't believe the tiny line. I bought a digital test, which DH hid from me to take 15DPO, but I couldn't wait. I bought 4 more $tree tests and took one 14DPO, which had a darker line, but it was still light. The digital test said Pregnant! though, so I was thrilled. I made an appointment with my CNM for January 4th! I still took another test 16DPO just to see, and it was slightly darker. The one 20DPO was VERY dark, and at that point a friend of mine mentioned she was late. I gave her the last test so I wouldn't have to take it, too. She's pregnant as well and due the day before me!

We decided not to tell anyone just yet. DH told his family a week ago, but I wanted to tell my folks in person today, then announce it to the rest of my sibs. My sis went to lunch with me two weeks ago and noticed I didn't eat much, and then last week, well, because I'm me and have these genes, the baby is already making my tummy poke out, so I told her so she wouldn't just wonder. lol. Sorry you're all having to wait. I also ended up tellng mamabear because she has us for Christmas and called to say she was shipping something, so I asked her to ship her maternity clothes, too (thanks!!!).

In retrospect, I had been having weird cravings from about 9DPO -- ate part of a can of French's Fried Onions right out of the darn can. In bed. While DH was at work. He was kind of annoyed when he got home and crawled into crumbs. We also had some cherry pie filling in the cupboard, which I wanted to eat right from the can, too, but didn't let myself. I made a cherry crumble, and it turned out pretty well.

I am nauseated, tired, boobs/nipples hurt like mad, I'm bloated, constipated, frisky as all get out at random points throughout the day (never when DH is available, so I'm also frustrated!), emotional, surviving on saltines and ginger ale, etc. etc. etc. I'll take every symptom though because it's a good sign for the bean being stuck in there.

So, today (12/18) I was snuggling with DH in bed, and he said, "this is something I'm going to miss." I said, "What?" "When you get too big to snuggle me like this." Which made me laugh -- when we were dating, he loved to cuddle and kiss and all that stuff, but after we got married, the amount of time we spent doing that stuff started making him feel claustrophobic (since he's not a snuggly person by nature), and he started asking me to NOT snuggle him in bed so much. It was a little weird/hard for me, but I guess after a little over a year of marriage, he's enjoying the time we've been spending, just snuggling, which has increased again to where it was when we first got married. I reminded him and he got a tad embarrassed and said, "things change." And we just kept holding each other and snuggling. It was nice.

My folks came here on their way down to Springville, and I gave them their present: Hand made paper ornaments ... and one of them had the last pregnancy test attached to it. lol. Mom flipped it over to look at the back, and I said, "no, you need to look at the white stick again." She did and said, "IT'S PINK! Does that mean it's a girl?" hehehehe. She and dad both laughed and were quite reassured when I told them Munchkin had me wipe it off with antibacterial wipes before we gave it to them.

Merry Christmas! Baby is due 8/15, which is 12 days after Munchkin's birthday and one week before her own due date. So she's excited to get a baby for her birthday. hehehe.

It's official: I'm pregnant!

So on 12/03, I passed out for two hours in the afternoon snuggled up with DH. Didn't think much of it until the next morning, when I got up at 6, worked for a bit, went out to help kiddo get ready for school, laid down on the couch, and the next thing I knew it was an hour later and she was late to school. I decided I had to take a test because that's just not normal! lol. We also had some drama with dh's job that same day/week -- which made me go, "I bet I'm pregnant." So I took a test as soon as I dropped her off.

There was a very faint line. I was only 12DPO, so I wasn't expecting it to be flaming positive, but still didn't believe the tiny line. I bought a digital test, which DH hid from me to take 15DPO, but I couldn't wait. I bought 4 more $tree tests and took one 14DPO, which had a darker line, but it was still light. The digital test said Pregnant! though, so I was thrilled. I made an appointment with my CNM for January 4th! I still took another test 16DPO just to see, and it was slightly darker. The one 20DPO was VERY dark, and at that point a friend of mine mentioned she was late. I gave her the last test so I wouldn't have to take it, too. She's pregnant as well and due the day before me!

We decided not to tell anyone just yet. DH told his family a week ago, but I wanted to tell my folks in person today, then announce it to the rest of my sibs. My sis went to lunch with me two weeks ago and noticed I didn't eat much, and then last week, well, because I'm me and have these genes, the baby is already making my tummy poke out, so I told her so she wouldn't just wonder. lol. Sorry you're all having to wait. I also ended up tellng mamabear because she has us for Christmas and called to say she was shipping something, so I asked her to ship her maternity clothes, too (thanks!!!).

In retrospect, I had been having weird cravings from about 9DPO -- ate part of a can of French's Fried Onions right out of the darn can. In bed. While DH was at work. He was kind of annoyed when he got home and crawled into crumbs. We also had some cherry pie filling in the cupboard, which I wanted to eat right from the can, too, but didn't let myself. I made a cherry crumble, and it turned out pretty well.

I am nauseated, tired, boobs/nipples hurt like mad, I'm bloated, constipated, frisky as all get out at random points throughout the day (never when DH is available, so I'm also frustrated!), emotional, surviving on saltines and ginger ale, etc. etc. etc. I'll take every symptom though because it's a good sign for the bean being stuck in there.

So, today (12/18) I was snuggling with DH in bed, and he said, "this is something I'm going to miss." I said, "What?" "When you get too big to snuggle me like this." Which made me laugh -- when we were dating, he loved to cuddle and kiss and all that stuff, but after we got married, the amount of time we spent doing that stuff started making him feel claustrophobic (since he's not a snuggly person by nature), and he started asking me to NOT snuggle him in bed so much. It was a little weird/hard for me, but I guess after a little over a year of marriage, he's enjoying the time we've been spending, just snuggling, which has increased again to where it was when we first got married. I reminded him and he got a tad embarrassed and said, "things change." And we just kept holding each other and snuggling. It was nice.

My folks came here on their way down to Springville, and I gave them their present: Hand made paper ornaments ... and one of them had the last pregnancy test attached to it. lol. Mom flipped it over to look at the back, and I said, "no, you need to look at the white stick again." She did and said, "IT'S PINK! Does that mean it's a girl?" hehehehe. She and dad both laughed and were quite reassured when I told them Munchkin had me wipe it off with antibacterial wipes before we gave it to them.

Merry Christmas! Baby is due 8/15, which is 12 days after Munchkin's birthday and one week before her own due date. So she's excited to get a baby for her birthday. hehehe.

Our Tiny Christmas Tree

Long story short, we bought a new tree this year: A *yittle* one. Hubby asked for it instead of either of the big ones because our house is crowded (true), so I picked one up. Munchkin made the topper, which is hard to see, but has a star on it, and she and I picked out the ornaments at The Evil Empire yesterday: Reindeer, teddy bears, santas, snow flakes, and the gold balls, with a garland to match. We decorated it last night, hubby even helped, and I'm quite pleased with how it turned out. The cord is too short to reach an outlet where it is, so it's not turned on yet, but we're getting an extension cord so it can be! YAY! We all feel more like Christmas is here now. :)

awww, It's Christmas!

So, hubby doesn't love holidays. In fact, he hates them. His birthdays and the holidays always sucked. Until me. lol. Actually, last year things were tough -- he'd ask for something and then want something different. *sigh* This year ... I've done better as far as gifts go, but I've been so busy lately I haven't done *any* holiday baking or decorating. We usually have the tree up by the end of Thanksgiving weekend, and I start baking then too. Not this year. So the other day, hubby was talking about my toffee cookies ... so last night after he went to work, I made him a batch. He came home this morning and didn't even see them, and I said, "I made you a surprise, go look on the stove!" He started eating one and said, "awwww, it's Christmas!" hehehe. He's so cute. He may not want to do something with my ENTIRE family, but at least he's enjoying *something* about the holidays!

Dentists, drugs, and hangovers!

Kiddo went to the dentist for a filling yesterday. Because she suffers from such high anxiety, he cranked the nitrous all the way to the top. Within about 30 seconds, she was very calm and started being silly. A few minutes later, the assistant turned down the nitrous. Munchkin kept saying things like, "I feel goooooooooood," and trying to wave at everyone who came in the room, nearly poking people's eyes out because she was so uncoordinated. She didn't fight any of the work after that, and it didn't take too long to finish her up.

However, as soon as they turned off the nitrous and sat her up, she started crying from a horrible headache and whined the entire time home! She felt like she was going to puke and ended up sleeping it off (which gave me the opportunity for a well deserved and well needed nap myself!).

Being the mom that I am, we had a talk about drugs and alcohol and WHY people do the things they do (because it makes them feel good temporarily), but that they always feel like that afterward. I told her I hope she never has to go through that again, whether it's from a medication at the doctor or choices she makes as an adult, and she agreed.

This on the heels of the sex talk the other day. I guess kids have been talking about it at school. She's in third grade!!!! Gah. At least now she knows where babies come from.

So my normal mantra of "no drinking, no smoking, no drugs, no boys, i love you" as she got out of the car to go into school this morning made more sense to her. hahahaha.

Amazing.

Hilarious. Fantastic.

Enough.

Random Tears

RS/Priesthood were combined today and ran a few minutes over. The lesson was pretty good, but all thoughts of it flew out of my mind within a couple minutes. One of my friends came in at the end and said "your daughter is waiting out in the hall, I told her class was almost over." No biggie, right? Munchkin is the LEAST likely kid to take off or hide, she's so responsible it's scary sometimes. So I go out in the hall after the prayer. No Munchkin. Up and down the hall both directions. No Munchkin. Same friend sees me frantic, starts looking as well. No Munchkin. Primary room? No Munchkin, even though she had gone back in there and told the Primary pres she wanted to wait in there since she didn't want to be alone. The primary pres starts looking with me, I'm starting to Freak out. No Munchkin. Back into the gym (where my class was instead of the RS room). She sees two of Munchkin's friends and asks them if they've seen her. "She's looking for you!" I said, "If she comes back, tell her to stay HERE." The primary pres runs across the gym and grabs Munchkin as she's headed out the other side again. I start bawling my head off. lolol. Geeze. Munchkin has agreed that if I'm not in the RS room, she's to go back to the primary room and STAY THERE. We had this whole talk about how if you're lost, you need to stay in one place so someone can find you. Yeah, she insisted she wasn't lost, that it was ME who was lost. *sigh* So I said, "You stay put. Let the grown up (me) find YOU." AAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

SUGAR

Munchkin has some strange eating habits. She's not exactly a vegetarian, as she avoids eating vegetables, but she doesn't prefer to eat meat usually either. Basically, she doesn't like anything but carbs and LOVES sugar. We've been cutting back on her sugar intake because of this, and her daddy is pretty strict about when/how much sugar she can have. Obviously, all of this is on her mind, because last night, when I was putting Munchkin to bed, she asked what sugar is made of. I told her sugar cane or beets. She asked what beets are. "A sweet red vegetable." "A vegetable? WEIRD!" Yeah, so then she asked if you had to beat them to get the sugar out. I told her I didn't know, but it was made in a factory. She then asked, "So, if the sugar is from beets, doesn't that count as eating a vegetable?" hahahaha ... I laughed. Then I said no.

I jacked it from Dawn!

What. Turnabout is fair play!!!

On a separate sheet of paper, write out your full name. Then, extract all the vowels and write them in order here to get your aloha name.

Eeyeaouaeaa

How old are you?

31 (ha, i'm younger!)

In fifteen words or fewer, describe yourself as a child.

Smarty-pants. Bossy. Stubborn. Brilliant. Oblivious. -- huh, seems Dawn and I were the same child.

In fifteen words or fewer, describe yourself today.

Bossy. Stubborn. Tired. Brilliant. Nauseated.

What did you eat for breakfast?

I *think* I had cheesy hashbrowns and an egg before I started feeling sick ...

What kind of clothing (or lack thereof) do you sleep in?

Underwear in the summer, fleece stuff in the winter.

Think back: in reverse order, what color have you worn for the past five days, including today?

Green and pink, black, black, ... no idea? (going with the dominant shirt color only, in case you were wondering. -- me too)


If the Talent Fairy flew into the room, what skill or talent would you request from her?

Flight.

Favorite flavor of milkshake?

Probably chocolate or raspberry if made with real berries.

Favorite kind of pie?

Pumpkin, although this week I wanted cherry ... and I REALLY like buttermilk.

Favorite kind of donut?

Glazed. Or the coconut covered ones at Macey's.

Favorite cocktail?

I used to like screwdrivers ...

What is your favorite TV show?

I don't watch TV.

Finish this sentence: All I want for Christmas is ___________.

What I already got ... and if hubby can figure out a way to make all of my wildest dreams come true, that'd be cool, too.

Look out the nearest window. What do you see?

A parking lot.

What's the last thing you purchased?

Groceries (including ice cream).

What would you rather be doing right now?

Sleeping. -- Amen, sistah!

What is the last non-communication (email, blog) website you visited?

PROBABLY a trying to conceive message board. Wait, that doesn't count? Yahoo.

MEME!

1. Where where you 3 hours ago? Making and eating dinner: Broiled salmon, noodles, mixed veggies.
2. Who are you in love with? My husband and my child(ren).
3. Have you ever eaten a crayon? Probably.
4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? My Kleenex box and a medical reference book.
5. When was the last time you went to the mall? A few weeks ago for a failed laser hair removal treatment. I cried through it, so we ended it.
6. Are you wearing socks right now? No, I can't find my warm ones!
7. Do you have a car worth over $2000? Yes, and one that is not.
8. When was the last time you drove out of town? May to Park City for a getaway with hubby. I need another one.
9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days? No
10. What was the last thing you had to drink? Water. And hot chocolate.
11. What are you wearing right now? capris, a black T-shirt, and a gray hoodie.
12. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it? I let hubby do it.
13. Last food you ate? Cherry crumble.
14. Where were you last week this time? Probably in the same place: glued to this chair, supposed to be working.
15. Have you purchased any clothing items in the last week? No, but I returned some to Old Navy yesterday.
16. When is the last time you flossed? Not recently enough.
17. What is the last TV program you watched? I have no idea.
18. What is your favorite animal? Kittens.
19. What sign are you? Taurus.
20. What is your favorite dream vacation? Somewhere warm in the winter. Like Hawaii.
21. Last person's home you were in? I'm assuming you mean besides mine. Probably my in-laws.
22. Worst injury you ever had? Broken legs, probably.
23. Do you miss anyone right now? My mom.
24. Last play you saw? I have no idea.
25. What is you secret weapon to lure the opposite sex? I go to bed naked. He usually responds.
26. What are your plans for this evening? Work, send hubby to work, work some more, and sleep.
27. Next trip you are going to take? I *think* we're going to Cali next summer, but that's kind of up in the air.
28. Ever go to camp? Girls camp, yes.
29. Were you an honor roll student? Yeah. I don't know how though.
30. What do you want to know about the future? Really, I just want to know we're all okay and hubby stays on his meds and at some point I'd really like to be able to quit my job and just be a mom, but we'd still need a roof over our heads and a reliable vehicle and food on the table before I can do that.
31. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne? No.
32. Are you due sometime soon for a doctors visit? Probably should see one in the next month or so.
33. Where is your mother? On an airplane, probably about to land in Milwaukee (not the one in Oregon, but I can't remember how to spell the BIG one).
34. Do you have a tan? It's December. No.
35. What are you listening to right now? I *should* be listening to the voices in my head.
36. Do you collect anything? Not so much. I collected stickers as a kid though.
37. Who is the biggest liar you know? ME. :P
38. Last time you got stopped by cop or pulled over? Five years ago this month -- right before I moved to Utah.
39. What is the weird exotic food that you like? I like sushi. NOW. I never did before I got married though.
41. Last time you took a shower? So gross. Yesterday morning.
42. Sesame Street Character you most identify with? Snufflupugus. Some days I feel invisible, too.
44. What is your heritage? Some European stuff, and Lebanese.
45. Are you rich? NO. Some months we're more comfortable than others though.

I hate being in that one week wait, where you *could* be pregnant, but might not be, and your mind starts playing tricks on you OR your body is gearing up for AF. My boobs are HUGE, I am super tired, and I started getting nauseated a couple of nights ago. I am 11 DPO today and will not test until this coming weekend unless AF shows up. Seeing BFNs bums me out worse than when AF gets here. Yeah. *if* my LP is only 13 or 14 days, AF should be here Wed or Thurs, but if my CL stays around 30 days, AF should be here Saturday. But all of that is up in the air from the Clomid.

YES, I am obsessed! although not as much as some people on the TTC forum I go to ... at least I didn't start POAS 6 DPO.

Basketball

WHY oh WHY do sports get used as analogies for SEX???

BA, sadly, Parker is not the only one who has done this.

Although, saying "he shoots, he scores!" when talking about a man rendering his wife pregnant is a little different ... but still.

Even DH said, "is it time to shoot darts yet?" Geeze ...

that is all.

Deep Breath

Some of you know ... Hubby was on meds for his bipolar disorder over the summer. He got pretty crazy while he was on them, but we figured out that the body building stuff he was taking was interacting with the medication. So he quit taking both.

Things have still been hard, but not nearly as stressful as they were. His new shift at work is going okay. Small Fry isn't coming out for Christmas, which we're both fine with. The biggest thing right now is that Clomid has made me mildly crazy, and I can't take my herbal antidepressants because if I *do* get pregnant, they can cause miscarriages.

He's been crashed for two days after my last episode of Clomid Crazies. So he decided last night to go back on the medication.

I'm just a little scared, but told him I'd support him. So he took a dose this morning. He's feeling pretty good right now; hoping that continues. Reminded him probably none of the body building stuff will work with it; he's taking it in stride and goign to avoid it all. So that's good.